Contemplating the Lure of Another's Submission

This evening I was perving a few videos on Fetlife and I was surprised by my response to one in particular.  I am not normally drawn to water sports or piss-play at all and yet that was the focus of this brief clip.  The Dominant in question had made a video of pissing very slowly into another man's mouth, which he described as "piss feeding a pig."  Not my usual thing at all.

What caused me to even open this clip? It was the expression on the submissive's face in the opening frame.  It drew me in completely and pulled me past the awful caption.  His eyes were fixed on the camera which was likely in front of the Dom's face.  The submissive was leaning slightly back, supported by his hands.  His mouth was open and gaze turned upward.  He wore an innocent looking, plain white t-shirt.  At first, his expression was a little cheeky, playful and yet very engaging.

But as the clip went on, the gaze changed.  His eyes began to tear up a bit as he struggled to maintain his composure and deal with the steady slow stream of urine.  A couple of times, he sputtered, cleared his throat and then resumed his role as eager receptacle, his expression becoming even more intensely submissive. Near the end of the clip, he closed his eyes and sucked hungrily on his Dominant's cock, carefully licking every drop of urine away.

Guess Who Was Good Girl This Year?

I know many of you are busy with family, presents and turkey; however, I just had to share a couple of gifts I received from Lady.

My hands have been plagued with stiffness in the morning, so Lady found me the greatest toy to help get them moving again. It's soft and squishy and oh so very touchable!

I also got a copy of J.D. Lenzen's book Decorative Fusion Knots.  I squealed when I saw this one coming out of the package.  Guess what I'll be doing later today?

And lastly, I got a copy of Showing You the Ropes by Two Knotty Boys. I guess I've been a very good girl this year. <grin>

So dear readers, what interesting gifts did you get this Yuletide?

Yuletide Greetings!

May the magic of the Season be yours!

Holiday Gift Ideas - Chinese Coin Necklace

Today I was resting my knee as ordered by my surgeon and playing with yarn and knitting needles, seeing what I could invent.  I had a small amount of Kroy Sock Yarn leftover from other projects.  I thought it a shame just to toss it.

I set up six stitches across two 2.5 mm double pointed needles and began knitting I-cord.  (Most instructions on the internet don't use three needles, but I prefer this method.  For instructions on making I-cord, check out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJ0s_2TBwCQ 

I actually kept knitting until the small ball was used up.  The resulting cord was long enough to tie a Double Chinese Coin knot in the center.  I attached a simple hook and eye clasp on each end and voila!  A very pretty necklace and homage to one of my favorite knots.  A lovely gift for any woman on your Christmas gift list.

An update to the last post

I realized afterwards that I used a bit of "jargon" in my last post.  So here's a little glossary with some links and pictures.

Solomon's Bar -  For those who did macrame in Girl Guides, you will recognize this as a continuous band of square knots tied around two center cords.  You can see a lovely version of this at the Fusion Knots website http://fusionknots.com under their Knot Gallery.  The best picture I've found of this technique used on a penis is on line is at http://fusionknots.com  (shown here at the right).  I my case, I used the long ends of the cord to pull his shaft up to his abdomen and then tied the ends off around his waist.  I like to think of it as a penis corset, of sorts. :D

Parachute - In the case in question, the parachute consists of a semi circle of leather with snaps along the outer edges.  The "collar" is fitted around the scrotum, so the balls hang down beneath it.   You can find the one pictured here at Top to Bottom Leathers in the UK - the picture is from their site.  Weights are attached to the ring or clip below the parachute creating a downward pull and a lovely ball stretch.

Cock helicopter - I've included a description of this in a previous blog post on CBT.  I learned about it through a tutorial at the Kink Academy website.  A shoe lace or parachute cord is wrapped around the shaft of the penis in one direction, starting at the base and working out to just under the corona.  Still holding the end of the lace, I like to stand about three feet away from Pet, just off to the side and pull the lace in a deliberately continuous movement.  As the lace pulls free it twirls the penis around in a circle.  The faster you pull the lace, the faster the penis twirls!

Hope this is a help!

Contemplating Cock and Ball Torture

This past weekend was an eventful one.  Pet and I had the opportunity for two lengthy play sessions in the new studio/play space.  If there was a "theme" to this weekend, I'd say it was cock and ball torture or CBT.  The great thing about CBT is it can be elaborate or quite simple.  If you have the resources to equip your toy bag, there are plenty of gadgets out there to add variety to your play.  That being said, it is also possible to engage in some pretty interesting CBT play without breaking the bank.

Pet and I represent both ends of the CBT spectrum.  He likes his gadgets and has a very well equipped toy bag.  He has a humbler, plexi ball crusher, cock and ball harnesses, a digital power box with its own CBT harness, cock rings and his most recent aquisition, a parachute.  Now don't get me wrong, I enjoy these toys too.  Let's just say I like being more hands-on so we often alternate between high-tech and low-tech methods.

One of my favorite CBT "toys" is a set of boot laces.  I often like to start things off with a cock helicopter (or two or three).  Using the same laces, I can then create a ball stretcher or with a Solomon's Bar can effectively isolate his balls from his cock, leaving them wonderfully accessible.  I love to squeeze and slap his balls with my hands when they are isolated like this and under some pressure.  Finger nails are also quite effective. I gave his scrotum a thorough going over with his Wartenburg Wheel as well.  I also applied pressure to his bound balls using my thigh and knee.

For a change of pace last evening, I stepped outside and filled a small ziplock bag with a handful of snow.  I decided his balls needed some cooling down and plunged them into the bag of snow.  I also took a small amount in my hand and melted it against his shaft.  It elicited the desired reactions.  :D 

We did give the parachute a test run too.  It was purchased locally through Our Pleasure.  The leather is quite soft and the attached hardware very shiny.  I had a handful of industrial carabiners which we used as weights along with a pair of handcuffs.  It took a couple of tries to get in place the first time, but overall it worked out beautifully.  Pet certainly enjoyed the downward stretch and when I gave the weights a push, he enjoyed it even more.  Eventually I pulled out the power box and attached the pads to his balls and cock and set it up for a 15 minute cycle at level five.  As his jewels had been sensitized over the previous hour and a half, the first jolt at that power level almost sent him airborne!  But, as usual, my dear Pet was up to the challenge and did not wish to give in.  I hugged him firmly from behind as the current repeatedly assaulted his senses, and whispered encouragement in his ear.

It was a change of pace for us to be in the studio, Pet's arms secured by rope to the eye bolts in the ceiling.  While I delight in provoking his response, I also took great pleasure in having him completely at my mercy.

We are already looking forward to our next play session.  I can confidently say that there is a lot more CBT in our future.

Contemplating Our Three-Way Relationship

This past weekend, Pet came for a visit.  It had been a month since he was last here and two weeks since he and I attended a rope night.  Lady and I had both been looking forward to seeing him, albeit for different reasons.  Between our very different work schedules, his recent move to a new apartment, and our recent push to get the studio/play space done, there has been little opportunity to actually get together.  When we finally do get together, it's like the three of us pick up where we left off.

I was itching to play and so was he.  The excitement in our conversation on the drive over Friday evening was evident.  When we arrived, Lady had food for us.  Our mood expanded to include her.  Pet got re-acquainted with our dogs.  Soon we were gathered around the table,  enjoying a relaxing meal and each other's company.  Our senses of humor mesh well and we've spent enough time together to have a feel for what each of us finds funny.  There was genuine warmth between the three of us as we caught up on each other's news and shared stories.

Saturday was to be move-in day for the studio, so after supper was cleared away, we set up for one last play session in the living room.  Recognizing that wax play would be a little more challenging in the new space (at least until spring), we opted for a little wax and electro-play after our usual impact play.  Lady worked away at the computer nearby as Pet and I did our thing.

Some might find this odd, but given the size of our little house, absolute privacy has not been possible.  Lady has always been very respectful of our privacy and has obligingly taken pictures and video footage for us during play sessions.  Being close by has also helped her become more comfortable with my relationship with Pet.  She has watched it evolve over time and Pet has earned her respect and trust.  I think it has also given Pet an appreciation for the nature of my relationship with Lady.

I sometimes find myself marveling at the evolving dynamic between us.  I can walk up to Lady and hug her from behind while she is making cinnamon buns and then reach out and stroke Pet's hair as he seats himself at the table.  When we watch movies, Lady is often in her chair while I stretch out on the couch with my feet in Pet's lap.   There is such affection between the three of us. We trust Pet implicitly with all things electronic and this is no small thing as he is also the designated keeper of all our "naughty" files should any permanent misfortune befall lady and I.

On Saturday, Pet and I had our first play session in the new space.  For the first time in many months, we had a room completely to ourselves. Since the eye bolts weren't yet installed, we played much as we have during previous sessions.  The experience was intense for me.   The singularity of purpose and intent in the space helped me to focus the excitement and energy raised by our activities.  The lighting was perfect.  The incense was an earthy fragrance that complemented the pheromones and other-worldly music floating in the air.  Pet was clearly swept up in the moment as well.  While his body was disciplined and still, his eyes danced and scent betrayed his excitement.  We took our time and spent a wonderful two hours together.

As we cuddled and enjoyed the afterglow, we both were keenly aware of the significance of the evening and of the trust we had earned.  I think it was a point of pride for both of us.

When we rejoined Lady, she commented on how we glowed and seemed genuinely pleased for us.  We had a snack together and shared  some of the highlights with her.  We also reflected on the group effort that had gone into getting the studio to its present state.  While Lady and I did a lot of the work, Pet also pitched in whenever he visited. In many ways, the studio project is a metaphor for our three-way relationship: each of us contributes and participates according to his/her talents and abilities, within the limits that make it do-able for the three of us.

Next weekend, Pet will be joining us again. We will have a nice meal together, and exchange small gifts.  We will watch movies and playfully torment each other.  We will share stories and we will continue to nurture our evolving relationship. Pet has made it known that he is pleased to be a part of the family and Lady regards him as such.

I have a loving Lady who recognizes and treasures my need to relinquish control and push my boundaries.  I have a loving Pet who has helped me discover and embrace my inner predator. Together they have helped me achieve a state of balance in my life that I didn't think was possible until now.  I am truly happier than I've ever been.  This is their gift to me.  My challenge is to remain worthy of them both.

Contemplating Female Ejaculation

If you Google "female ejaculation" you will get approximately 13,500,000 hits.  It's at moments like this I say "thank you" to the internet for making information more accessible.  I can tell you when I was coming of age (no pun intended) female ejaculation wasn't on the radar at all.  It was hard enough to get reliable information about birth control and sexually transmitted diseases.

According to some sources, female ejaculation has been written about for centuries.  Despite this, the suggestion that women can expel fluid from their bodies as part of arousal remains a somewhat controversial subject.  Some argue that it is a merely an attempt to overlay the male sexual experience over the typical female response.  Some assert that it remains a limited phenomenon while others suggest it is wider spread than commonly thought.

For those of you for whom this is a new concept, let me summarize.  Female ejaculation, also referred to as "gushing" or "squirting" refers to the process by which a woman expels noticeable quantities of clear fluid from the paraurethral ducts, located in her genital area, during or before orgasm.  Often it is mistaken for urination or loss of bladder control during sex and provokes a startle response which shuts it off (and sometimes the orgasm as well).  One thing current research does seem to agree on is that the fluid expelled is not at all like urine.  It has little or no odor and is chemically different from urine.   The quantity expelled can vary greatly from almost imperceptible amounts to as high as a pint.  There is some suggestion squirting is connected to stimulation of the g-spot, however, this has not been conclusively proven.

The first time I watched this phenomenon was in a porn flick.  Frankly I was skeptical at first as porn is often based more on fantasy or on the extraordinary abilities and talents of the actors than on what happens in suburban North America.  Then I discovered a video on the Kink Academy site that discusses squirting very matter-of-factly and then proceeds to demonstrate.  The women in the video weren't porn stars, though the woman carrying out the demo did say that she gushes regularly.  This may have made her exceptional as some women gush once in a lifetime.  What elicits this response is still a bit of a mystery.

All of this was interesting to me, but I wasn't losing any sleep over it.  My sex life is better now than it has ever been and I've had exceptional experiences in the last year.  That being said, I figured I had come close (again no pun intended) to this experience once, but wasn't certain.  I mean how do you really know you've experienced a bodily process that remains such a topic of debate and a mystery?

I can now say unequivocally, you will definitely know when it happens!  And don't let the skeptics talk you out of what you now know to be true.

Last night, Lady and I were pooped when we crawled into bed.  It had been nearly two weeks since my last orgasm, but I was feeling a little restless so asked her permission to break out the wand for a little therapeutic relief.  She graciously agreed and cuddled me, as she usually does under such circumstances.  My first orgasm occurred almost immediately.  My exact words to her were, "That one was ripped from my body."  After a short rest, I decided to go for #2.  That's when things got very interesting.

I wasn't in a rush for this one, so I took my time and settled the head of the wand in a slightly different position than I usually favor.  The stimulation it provided was of a different quality - less intense in one way, but more so in another. I kept wanting to push down with my Kegel muscles as this increased my pleasure.  Eventually the tension peaked and I started to wail, but instead of cresting, it went on and on and on.  I didn't try to force it or draw back from it.  Instead I rode the wave and it kept going.  I don't know how much time passed before I felt the first gush.  I realized what was happening and didn't pull back from the experience or try to stop it.  The wave changed direction slightly but continued on and on.  By now, tears were streaming down my face.  Lady held on to me and kept me anchored physically and energetically as I moaned and thrashed.

When things finally started to settle and I could speak again, I reached down to the towel underneath me and felt the large wet spot.  To say I was pleased with myself is an understatement!  It was the most amazing orgasm of my life - and that is saying something after the past year. :)

So to all the sexologists, professors and researchers who have yet to be convinced that female ejaculation is real, perhaps you should take a page from those that seek to observe natural phenomenon in a natural setting or to experience the phenomenon themselves.  There is considerable range within human sexual response and not everything about it is easily quantified or recreated under controlled conditions.  

Take it from a cougar who has just had her first squirting experience three months shy of her 49th birthday:  It is very, very real! 

Contemplating Adaptation: Accommodating Bad Knees

Well it's now official. The orthopedic doctor has confirmed that my knees are much older than the rest of me, both are arthritic and I am well on the way to being a candidate for knee replacement in the not-so-distant future.  The only real good news today was that he can fit me in to have one knee scoped and some minor repair work done before Christmas.

Over the past six months, I have experienced increasing levels of pain in my knees and have been nursing them more than usual.  Lady is very good about accommodating my knee issues when we play.  I tend to be standing or lying face down.  I am rarely on my knees as it becomes too painful too quickly.  Lying face down allows me a submissive posture, limits my ability to see what is happening and still provides plenty of flexibility for play options.

I'm realizing that I also have to make some modifications to better protect my knees when playing with Pet.  I've been giving this some thought as the studio/play space enters the final phase of construction (i.e. paint, trim and flooring). Given the play space is also my hobby studio, any "adaptations" need to blend into the vanilla decor when needed as well as fulfill a supportive function.  Since I'm certainly not the only switch out there with bum knees, I thought I'd share a few ideas with you.

The first thing I figured I'd need, especially for rope work, is a rolling stool.  I have to avoid bending my knees any more than necessary so a stool is ideal.  Better to sit and take the strain off them altogether.  The one featured at the Canadian Tire website sells for $24.99 and even has a convenient shelf below to keep "tools" handy.  To take a look, go to:  http://www.canadiantire.ca/AST/browse/4/Auto/Auto-Gifts/Auto-gift-Auto-Tools/PRDOVR~1991686P/MotoMaster+Heavy-duty+Pneumatic+Roller+Seat.jsp?locale=en  Princess Auto has a pretty red one for $39.99 pictured here on the left.  At the moment, I think I'm leaning toward the red one as the tray is round like the seat itself.  I expect some of the smaller toys and clothespins will reside on the tray during play sessions.  A stool like this will also be handy for hobbies.

The next item I've been considering is a folding massage table.  Canadian Tire sells one rated to 300 lbs for $149.99 (sale price - regularly $199.99).  I like getting my face close to the action and this would raise pet from the floor and give me much easier access.  I've also seen some pictures of some interesting bondage possibilities utilizing such a table.  It will fold away when not in use and will come in handy for massage and Reiki purposes as well.  (Lady and I are trained in Reiki but the absence of a proper table has been a hindrance to regular practice.)

Lastly, I will be moving a nice arm chair into the space.  In preparation, I've been trying out ways of conducting torments "from my throne" as it were. I've learned that CBT can easily be carried out from the comfort of an armchair.  Zippers can also be easily applied and removed.  Some forms of impact play are also quite comfortable this way, as the picture shows. :D

This weekend we will be painting the studio interior.  I've settled on two shades of purple.  The deepest color will be applied to one wall and to wooden furnishings, including a wooden mantel.  The lighter color will go on the other three walls.  I'll post pictures once it's done.