A while ago I wrote about my first experience ejaculating during orgasm. To be honest, at the time I wondered if it would ever happen again. I really couldn't say how or why it happened then, only that it did. It was as if lightning had struck, you know?
Recent events in my relationships have resulted in the smashing down of more barriers and the end of self-censoring my desires, at least in certain company (and you know who you are). If I had any previous doubts regarding whether or not I'm truly kinky, those have been put to rest. Yes, I am more than a gleeful sadist. Yes, I have much more than an intellectual curiosity around CBT. Yes, I am polyamourous and am attracted to men and women. I like to bite, growl, writhe, laugh and pant when I dominate and when I submit. And by gods, it is a wonderful life indeed!
Of course, it is more than a coincidence that in the midst of all of these epiphanies that I had another ejaculatory adventure! This time, the quantity of liquid expelled was greater. I also knew early on which direction my arousal was heading. As I explained to my partner, it originates in a very different place in my pelvis. It is less intense initially, but deeper. It evokes extremely primal urges as the tension builds. I claw and bite, and the sounds I make are utterly feral.
The next night, I made my first conscious attempt to push my arousal in that direction. I hadn't started out with that intention, just to see if I could move my body in the general direction. I didn't even care if I reached a climax or not. I just wanted to go back and pay closer attention to the sensations when arousal is building in that area of my pelvis.
I had recalled a class I took years ago - an introduction to tantric practice - and I tried one of the exercises I learned at that class. Using my Kegel muscles, I rhythmically pushed outward, while my Hitachi wand and my partner added to my physical stimulation. That, I discovered was the key! When I finally climaxed, I squirted at least three feet! And the quantity of liquid expelled was significant even though I had only climaxed like this the night before.
I've noticed that my arousal has been slower to build this way, but it is utterly delicious. It isn't as frustrating when I plateau either. It has an entirely different quality to it. The plateaus are actually small rest periods, where I can catch my breath. My body heats up incredibly during this process as well. I was slick all over from the exertion. And once again, I writhed, panted and moaned myself hoarse. Sex hasn't been this athletic an endeavor in years!
When trying to explain the difference between it and a more traditional clitoral-focused orgasm, I made this distinction: A traditional orgasm has the sensation of energy running upwards inside my body, while an ejaculatory orgasm has the sensation of energy being expelled. Instead of feeling "zapped out" afterwards, I feel like my lungs are larger and my chakras have been cleared.
I have a feeling there will be a physical conditioning program in my future. I need to get in better shape to see where I might take this little adventure of mine next. And it seems like I now have more reason than ever to improve my fitness level!